Saturday, October 02, 2004
i know you know that i love you..
i can be your friend but only till i can..
please its hard enough to stop myself from loving you when you're not around, don't add enough suffering i'm dealing with..i don't know what to do..i'm so jaded and confused...don't say "iloveyou" coz i know u really don't..don't give me false hope coz all i'll do is believe in everything you say..please i beg you it's better if you treat me as your friend..a friend who you can trust everything with,,a friend who you know will never ever leave you...but please don't tell me you love me more than what it should be...please you already have sarah...i'm only here to help you get through the trials that's been testing the both of you...it pains me whenever you ask if i can catch you when sarah let's go of you...what am i? a trampoline who'll absorb everything and bounce you back to someone? please i don't want to lose you so please just treat me as your friend...tell me what you really feel after you and sarah are through (which i think would be 10yrs from now) and i'm not perfect.,, and i can't wait that long...what if i fall to somebody else???grrr...damn im confused...and i feel really used by you....
;; BAYBEH
