Saturday, January 08, 2005
rarr!!i'm such a jerk...i'm so selfish..grrr....i hate myself...i really don't know what's going on...i'm feeling really down...depressed..i really really miss bestie.. imisskatsomuch...pero parang ang cold cold nya sakin..sobrang sad..='c... tas si bogs pumunta dito..pero kasama nya si ays...gusto ko sanang masolo si bogs..para ala lng i wanted to hug her and cry..pero andun si ays....gusto ko talaga kaming dalawa lng ni bogs..kaya tinry ko talagang indi umiyak..and made myself numb for the moment...tas i got out of the car as fast as i can...tas ala na umalis na si bogs..='c....and i really felt bad after that..tas may narealize pa daw cya..and she won't tell me kung ano un..rarrr!!tas magkakaroon pa ata ako kaya sobrang i don't understand what i'm really feeling and sobrang sad..and i want to cry it all out... im so selfish kci nidadamay ko c bogs sa pgkatopakin ko...cya ung nasstress pagtinotopak ako..sobrang unfair...rarrr!!i hate myself ryt now..sobrang sama ko... sobrang miss ko na talaga si kat...etoh ba ay epekto nun? haay..ewan..ang gulo..ang sakit pa ng puson ko..tas kelangan ko pang gumising ng maaga tom..kci mgddvisoria daw kmi ni mama...and sobrang feeling ko talaga wala ako sa mood nun...Papa Jesus sana po punta ako ng divisoria ng asa mood..kci magagalit si mama...hay ewan ang labo na nitong ginagawa ko..sobrang ala sa order..basta kung ano na lang ung pumasok sa isip ko....bogs i'm really really sorry...sana maforgive mo po ako.... sobrang sama ko talaga...sobrang nahihirapan ka na po ba? sabihin mo lang po kung indi mo na kaya..kung indi ka na po masaya...haay..i've become so unpredictable..kahit ung sarili ko indi ko na maintindihan..kanina ang saya-saya ko..ngaun naman sobrang depress...haay..sorry talaga bogs......imisskat..='c..tas i feel really insecure ryt now...ewan ko ba...tas kanina pa sa skul...nipagtripan pa ako ng barkada nla gabbie,,debbie,,det,,maico,,racquel..kung sino2 man cla...sumigaw sila ng "sexy!sexy!!"rarr!! anong problema nila?! shet..kainis...ampotah...haay ewan..kainis talaga..i really need bogs ryt now..pero i drove her away...tas si kat...indi ko malapitan...haay..ang sad...='c buti nlng andito si zehn....parang andito na rin si bogs...
;; BAYBEH
